I have two tickets to a concert next month, and no one to take with me. It's Rufus Wainwright, Ben Folds, and Ben Lee playing at a winery near Santa Cruz. I knew that i'd probably need a nice break from my work by the time it got here, so I really didn't mind spending the money on the tix. Part of me was hopeful that i'd have some sort of significant other by then... ya, silly me. And then of course I knew that if all else fell thru then i'd at least be able to have my estranged or her brother join me. She hasn't even asked about it, tho i'm pretty sure I told her I bought 2 tix.

now for the crazy part... I'm considering finding a complete stranger to go with me. Hey, why not?? new people, new experiences, right? some i'm thinking of posting an ad on Craigs List, looking for someone to share the experience with. Worst that could happen... no one responds? only weirdos? surely someone could go for a freebie concert, right? Or maybe I pay the ticket and they pay for dinner and drinks afterwards. they're excellent tickets (4th row center) so it shouldn't be too hard to find someone. I'm not exactly looking for someone to spend the rest of my life with, just a few good hours.

Okay, for further consideration... should that be posted in the strictly platonic section, or men seeking women? I guess that would be the part where i'd have to get honest with myself about what i'm really interested in. Damn. I don't mind being honest with other people, but hate having to be honest with myself.

I shouldn't even have to pause and consider something like this, but it's just not like the usual me (whoever that is). i've caught myself browsing thru personals sites a few times. I hate to even admit it. Just feels pathetic. Probably even a worse way to find someone worth meeting than drunkenly meandering thru bars (not that i'd do that, of course ;-)

so ya, that's how bad i've gotten. Everbody needs somebody sometimes.

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