the week, in bite-size chunks
it's been quite a strange week over here at JoJoWare, Inc. world headquarters. I could probably tell plenty, but sometimes it's just more entertaing to be a tease. rather than keep you guessing though, i'll break down a few pieces of my astrological snippet from last week.
Death
My grandfather died last weekend, but that wasn't exactly a bad thing. He's been mostly bed-ridden with Parkinson's for the last 10 years or so, on the brink of death many times. What was interesting about it to me is that it served as a little reminder of where my own father got his stellar, hands-off parenting abilities from. Not that that's an excuse, we all make choices about how we go thru life. My other realization from this is that I've learned to deal with death better after watching Six Feet Under. I haven't known very many people that have died so it's not something i've had much practice at. Leave it to TV to teach me that death is just another part of life.
Sex
Never too far from my mind, but lately it seems to be quite far from my reach. I won't go into specifics here, sorry.
Other People's Property
This could mean many things, which is a good reason to throw it into an astrology statement, right? Can't everyone find something that relates to them from a vague statement like other people's property? Come to think of it, if i'm still technically married, and dating, doesn't that make me other people's property?
Paranormal Experiences
My estranged is psychic. Okay, maybe i'm just not deceitful, and she reads me like an open book. I dropped the kids off last week at her place, on my way to a casual date with a new lady friend. She knew i was headed for a date. Granted i didn't really try too hard to conceal it, but she still knew. Later she told me that she got a sick feeling in her stomach, and noticed that i was looking "all cute" (highest compliment she's paid me in years). This is the first time it's come up directly since i told her that i was placing the personals ad. It brought up lots of crap, of course.
give something up
Later in the week i learned that although i thought we were slipping down the hill towards the big D, she was under the impression that there was hope to be had. She even claims to be sitting at home, sad and lonely, missing me. This all came as a complete shock to me. Definitely not what i was expecting. Does that change where i'm at? No, not really. I guess i just wish i had anticipated it so i could have considered how I would react.
Death
My grandfather died last weekend, but that wasn't exactly a bad thing. He's been mostly bed-ridden with Parkinson's for the last 10 years or so, on the brink of death many times. What was interesting about it to me is that it served as a little reminder of where my own father got his stellar, hands-off parenting abilities from. Not that that's an excuse, we all make choices about how we go thru life. My other realization from this is that I've learned to deal with death better after watching Six Feet Under. I haven't known very many people that have died so it's not something i've had much practice at. Leave it to TV to teach me that death is just another part of life.
Sex
Never too far from my mind, but lately it seems to be quite far from my reach. I won't go into specifics here, sorry.
Other People's Property
This could mean many things, which is a good reason to throw it into an astrology statement, right? Can't everyone find something that relates to them from a vague statement like other people's property? Come to think of it, if i'm still technically married, and dating, doesn't that make me other people's property?
Paranormal Experiences
My estranged is psychic. Okay, maybe i'm just not deceitful, and she reads me like an open book. I dropped the kids off last week at her place, on my way to a casual date with a new lady friend. She knew i was headed for a date. Granted i didn't really try too hard to conceal it, but she still knew. Later she told me that she got a sick feeling in her stomach, and noticed that i was looking "all cute" (highest compliment she's paid me in years). This is the first time it's come up directly since i told her that i was placing the personals ad. It brought up lots of crap, of course.
give something up
Later in the week i learned that although i thought we were slipping down the hill towards the big D, she was under the impression that there was hope to be had. She even claims to be sitting at home, sad and lonely, missing me. This all came as a complete shock to me. Definitely not what i was expecting. Does that change where i'm at? No, not really. I guess i just wish i had anticipated it so i could have considered how I would react.
posted by joe @ 11:32 AM
3 comments
yikes, Yikes, YIKES!!!
(There's more to be said, of course, but I just had to get that part out. OMG.)
*picking jaw up off floor* (over the "giving something up" segment)
women...
i don't think i can even finish that statement.
enuf said.
Not having the details of what put you apart in the first place, it is hard to know what to say but as your distant friend you still seem to have much love and angst in your words. Listen to your own heart because the consequences are yours alone to bear.