picky, or prudish?
A few weeks back i had a night out on the town with an odd assortment of people : an old co-worker/friend that had moved away to the big city in pursuit of love (and was about to marry her), some of the guys he used to play in a band with, their girlfriends and assorted hangers-on, a friend of my estranged that used to date the groom-to-be, and me. Ya, i know, i didn't get the feeling that i fit in either. But I had fun hanging out, just outside of my element.
After a few hours and a few drinks, the groom-to-be mingled away from the table i was at, my estranged's friend went home, and i was left with a few friends of friends. One of them was blonde, friendly, very tipsy, and totally digging on me. She came over and sat next to me and snuggled up for some completely meaningless time getting to know each other. She's an art major, pays the bills working in a pharmacy, and smelled really nice. Not the prettiest woman i've ever seen, but not ugly by any means. She had had too much to drink and i hadn't had enough, so that didn't help cupid's sharpshooting skills either. I got to introduce myself to her 4 times because she kept forgetting my name. Ya, she was that drunk.
That said, nothing much happened between us. She went home to sleep off some of her buzz, and soon after i went my separate way as well. Something probably could have happened, but i didn't push for it, and she probably didn't think i was that interested. I'd guess that it's not often that she's that forward with a guy and doesn't get a nice solid response.
So what the hell's my problem?!? Or maybe it's not really a problem, but what gives? For those keeping score, it's been a long long time since i've had the pleasure of another's company. At this point i figured i'd be so desperate that i'd sleep with just about anyone. But this is the second time (at least) that i've proven myself wrong. I'm not really interested in a one night stand, though there are definitely women out there that could change my mind. So was i just being picky? She wasn't beautiful, but definitely cute enough, even with a bit of alcohol in her. If i saw her out and about again, i'm sure i'd talk to her, though i'm also sure she wouldn't remember me at all.
And then I think partially it's the drama that i'm trying to avoid. Connecting with a new person brings the possibility of craziness added to my life, my kids', my estranged's, and plenty of others that just don't care for it. So i'm a little hesitant just to avoid that drama. I also tend to overthink it, as definitely evidenced here. God i wish i could just put a stop to all of that. Would be so much nicer to just be dumb, at least for awhile.
So i settle on it being a little bit of all of the above. And i'll keep my eye out for the person that satisfies my hesitations, at least most of the time. If you know her, have her call me.
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After a few hours and a few drinks, the groom-to-be mingled away from the table i was at, my estranged's friend went home, and i was left with a few friends of friends. One of them was blonde, friendly, very tipsy, and totally digging on me. She came over and sat next to me and snuggled up for some completely meaningless time getting to know each other. She's an art major, pays the bills working in a pharmacy, and smelled really nice. Not the prettiest woman i've ever seen, but not ugly by any means. She had had too much to drink and i hadn't had enough, so that didn't help cupid's sharpshooting skills either. I got to introduce myself to her 4 times because she kept forgetting my name. Ya, she was that drunk.
That said, nothing much happened between us. She went home to sleep off some of her buzz, and soon after i went my separate way as well. Something probably could have happened, but i didn't push for it, and she probably didn't think i was that interested. I'd guess that it's not often that she's that forward with a guy and doesn't get a nice solid response.
So what the hell's my problem?!? Or maybe it's not really a problem, but what gives? For those keeping score, it's been a long long time since i've had the pleasure of another's company. At this point i figured i'd be so desperate that i'd sleep with just about anyone. But this is the second time (at least) that i've proven myself wrong. I'm not really interested in a one night stand, though there are definitely women out there that could change my mind. So was i just being picky? She wasn't beautiful, but definitely cute enough, even with a bit of alcohol in her. If i saw her out and about again, i'm sure i'd talk to her, though i'm also sure she wouldn't remember me at all.
And then I think partially it's the drama that i'm trying to avoid. Connecting with a new person brings the possibility of craziness added to my life, my kids', my estranged's, and plenty of others that just don't care for it. So i'm a little hesitant just to avoid that drama. I also tend to overthink it, as definitely evidenced here. God i wish i could just put a stop to all of that. Would be so much nicer to just be dumb, at least for awhile.
So i settle on it being a little bit of all of the above. And i'll keep my eye out for the person that satisfies my hesitations, at least most of the time. If you know her, have her call me.
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posted by joe @ 10:54 PM
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LOL! Did you just get a spam in your comments??!! That is way to much...
ps - there is nothing wrong with you.
Yep, i think that's a spam. Hopefully i won't have to turn on the word verification check like MIO.
I was about to delete the offending comment, but the Don't stop part of it makes me laugh too much. Like a someone not sure of what they want...
Don't...
stop...
...don't stop!